wandering but not lost

it's almost november. I've had 3 counseling sessions so far. it's no quick fix, but i feel at peace even expressing myself at sessions. and learning with mina along the way has been precious. no doubt about that.

i'm just happy to be at peace. even on a day when i've been rejected from a gig i'd been waiting to hear back from.

listening to old u2 just gives me hope. the lyrics have maturity that i need to hear.

the sacrifice is not over yet. i've still got a ways to go with my dream. I happy to feel more latley that god has given me some peace about that. i'm not worrying about my future with Mina as much either. I just pray that something can give in the meantime though.

when i look at my pictures i feel like got a has given me a peace about moving forward. i don't want to retouch, or nothing other than shooting or directing. and that's okay. i feel like i get in a servant mentality and don't value the desire and happiness of the bigger prize.

in him

first counseling session

one session over

problem of career: 50% dealing with self doubt 50% dealing with whether this is a lifestyle problem possibly for me.

i'm tired.

I don't know what's next really.